Tuesday, 8 December 2015

Who's that... In the mirror?

It's time to knuckle down with your education and ignore everything else. But when your problem is yourself I don't know what to do. I'm a lost person, I know who I am but yet I'm also the biggest stranger.

It gets harder when things are timed poorly as well. My friend group recently had an internal meltdown and I got tied in on both sides. Torn. Torn between two sides in the same group and now I'm stuck as two halves of my self. For the past couple of days my brain just went into shut down and the slightest challenge just hurt and played with my mind

All of this combined has caused my body to give up sometimes. If I don't keep my brain active I'll just collapse and not get up till something literally wakes me up. 

It's always fun to come back on a positive note however! Because life sucks sometimes but we all know that one. I recently passed a test for geography, a subject I am hopeless with... Or so I thought!

I hope life's been treating you readers well anyway. Remember bad days are just days that are bad 

Ryan x 

Wednesday, 2 December 2015

Fear

I know it's Christmas time and Halloween is long gone but the worlds always spooky and believe me there's lots and lots of spooky scary skeletons.

I recently got over one of my biggest fears. A fear of ruining everything. I'd never go through with an idea or paint my artwork because I didn't want to ruin anything. Of course all fears are caused by something in your head just sorta clicking in place. As someone who is very expressive about their homosexuality and gender fluency I've argued with my family a lot and that's what caused my fear.

Of course to get over a fear I feel you've just got to slowly build up confidence about it (spiders, we all hate spiders but don't go putting a tarantula on your head!) I got over my fear of ruining things by slowly being more risky till I got to my art exam and I just thought "No limits, think of it and do it!"

Slow but steady. It's so overused but so heavily overlooked for a phrase that carries so much power. Everything works better when you do it with precision and at a speed you're comfortable with. (I do things a bit too slowly sometimes though I'll admit that one.)

(This was kinda short compared to my last post but it just kinda dawned on me and I wanted to write about it.)

Ryan x